| Thursday, February 15, 2007 |
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I AM VERY SAD, CONFUSe, VEX now!!! why does he has to do this to me everytime! when im alr happy with my life, he just wants to take control or change it.. when i mourn n yearns for ur love, why din u come for me..? but when im trying my best to recover, u wan to step into my life again! i am very very sad.. i don knoe what u want! i really dont.. excuses from you is all i know.. wad else can u give to me? i really want to know.. i am sitting here, crying pathetically. do u even knoe? u don give a damn, u don care about me. wad do u reali wan from me..? i cant give u the answer now cos i am in great pain. i am lost.. where shud i head to..? i am reali lost.. crying is not much of use.. just here to tell u that i reali wants to get back to u.. but due to the amount of pain u gave me, its reali hard for me to trust u with my life once again.. tell me wad am i suppose to do~ please, someone help me! get me out of this terrible and dark world.. i cant take it anymore! i just feel like dying.. why does he has to torture me in this way?!! I JUST HATE IT!! I HATE MY LIFE!! I just.. cant help it.. i hate it.. sighh! hais.. i cannot control my tears from falling, i jus cant.. im reali very sorry.. this is all i get from you before u left me.. without a word, without a call for the entire week.. but just a stupid blog to show how u felt.. u made me teared for more than 6 hrs after reading this, how much do u expect from me again?! TELL ME, i reali wan to know! I finally got an answer from my confused feelings. I do like her alot after all. However this is as far as we 2 goes. I don wanna hurt her again any more =( Every good things have to come to an end after all. If u happen to read my blog , i wanna tell u tat lets jus keep everything behind us. Keep those swit memories. Let time wash away all pains i gave u. So sorrie. I bet we will be the best frens in e future if u wan to =] Maybe staying single will be best O_O Anyway i m so gald tat i still got all my frens n family. I perfectly fine wif wat i have now. Life still has to move on afterall. pls DO NOT ever step into my life AGAIN! GET UR BULLSHIT OUT OF SIGHT, JUST GET LOST! i'll try my best to be strong, i un-welcome u to my life. pls don push me anymore, show me that u are worthy of my love -heartxbr0ken;lost. [headache] 359am 15feb07 |
