| Thursday, August 30, 2007 |
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zzzzzzz... my mind cant work all of a sudden!!! i love that song.. i know i knoww... that lyrics! i'm alwaes singing that..! sobx! cant get that funeral for a friend tickets which cost $170! T_T cries* i want to go :'( 987 rawks! T_T staying over at CYCY house for 2 daes? yupp! =] The Bottom Line If a friend can't communicate what they want, that's too bad. You're no mind reader. In Detail If someone you care about has been acting oddly toward you, do not make any assumptions as to why they are behaving the way they're behaving. And by the same token, don't make excuses for them either. If they can't communicate their feelings or expectations to you, then that is their fault. You cannot take responsibility for it -- what are you, a mind reader? Nope -- which is why you shouldn't feel bad if they try to send you on a guilt trip. Don't go there! heartxbr0ken 30AUG07 2258pm! |
| Wednesday, August 29, 2007 |
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hmmm.. met desmond this afternoon after exam. fit and muscular, not bad eh~ everytime db training.. haiyo.. yupp.. no mood to study! my waist is aching like hell, its breaking soon.. guess where am i now? haha.. SP, surprising eh.. come here for fun and laugher, peace and joy.. yupp~ this club is reali a joy! too bad im not in ur school.. i regretted not choosing it.. its so united.. so fun, unlike my school.. nothing at all! i hate gg to school! sighh~ tmr last paper le! cheer* hopefully i will pass! hmmm~ yupp yupp! holidae is coming soon! just tmr.. dont know what i'll do.. mayb work? ppl ask me out alrights? if not i'll be bored to death! to stacy darling, A MILLION THANKS! =] been feeling down these few daes.. after exams - hope will be happy! teachers' dae is coming soon.. hopefully its a dae of reunion with all the friends! miss secondary school a lot! see ya ppl arnd alrights?! yupp! lots of love~ last sat - church anniversary.. i miss church alot alot! i want to go back.. i've made the choice =] its great isnt it? hee.. hmm this is the reason why im not prepared for HAP. den for the past few daes, my BEAUTY SLEEP has taken away all my study time.. can you imagine studying 3 hours for one chapter? im just wasting my time!!!! its just so crazy.. gonna take sup paper for all subjects le.. DIE DIE!! i think i will go MAD due to studies soon.. dont study = BEST! wahahahaha~ oh well, what to do? hmmm... `how i wish there's someone here to dry my tears- heartxbr0kenz 29 AUG 07 2114pm |
| Monday, August 20, 2007 |
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damn damn damn.. how great! and in the end, ____ blocked me and went off.. left me hanging here with the answer unknown.. telling me i should try, if not i wont know. please! im the girl, not the guy.. initiative? he should be the one who takes it! zzz.. am i that irritating? maybe.. and why apologise... for wad happen? if you want to sae something just sae all at one go.. dont leave things hanging here! i dont know whats going on anymore. zzz! dont tell me u're the cause for everything that has happened in the past! that so irresponsible! nvm.. i dont wan to dwell on the past anymore! i've told myself this, i want to be convicted about my thoughts! no use getting hurt over and over again due to wad happened the last time.. like wad i said.. its the past, no use thinking of it.. it'll onli hurt the party. just like this saying: you feel lousy because you still care but your love has been thrown in the mud.. this is how it feels when a love affair ends and one party still cares! yes i admit i still care but now i'm telling you ppl that i want to care no more about his business.. wadever it is! i have to do it.. i want to, i want to i want to! i dont give a damn.. and if i ever feel sad again.. WAKE ME UP FROM THOSE STUPID THOUGHTS! cos it's not worth it! its stupid, time consuming, hurting! it will onli pain me.. i've tried so hard, yet there's nothing i got from it.. onli sadness, emptyness.. alrights, there's no use of me talking and chaning about this! todae and saturdae went to buy some clothings.. spend over two hundred ++, hopefully it'll come in good use! havent study yet! must must start alr, its on fridae!!!.. but still cant T_T takkaire peeps! ciaoz heartxbr0kenz 20AUG07 1053pm |
| Friday, August 17, 2007 |
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sighh.. have been feeling reali down recently, alwaes sadd. dont know why am i so affected by the past again.. thought alot about him, about the past.. all the things are lies, heard he wanted to patch but just found out that he just got attached. you all come and confront me or talk to me for wad.. u want me to get crazy isit.. im going mad due to wads happening recently already, still add on! SIGHH! i reali dont know wad to do.. have been in a very bad mood! dont feel like talking to anyone.. its all fake! everything.. i feel so badd. i couldnt get my feelings right, end up hurting the ones around me! what am i doing?! tell me.. im confuse, vex.. dying! very pek cek du lan.. im a sucker, a fucker sia!!!! is there any potion to clear, erase my memory?! i dont want to live this life.. i hate it.. i reali cannot control myself, just feel so down.. what is going on? zzz.. so fucked up! cbk... HAIXX!!! cant go for that dance competition, miss out alot of lessons! all due to that stupid genting trip! sighh. i feel so useless.. that stupid retarded syndrome of mine is coming back again! but i reali hate it.. someone help me! i feel like crying, pour my heart out.. but i dont wan to talk about how i feel to others.. this is the onli way i can vent all my feelings.. how contradicting things can be! zzz heartxbr0ken 17AUG07 20:28 |
| Thursday, August 16, 2007 |
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todae was not in a very good mood! was feeling reali down..had my food science lab exam, think i failed.. i knew it onli on mondae cos last fridae din go to sch ~went to GENTING!! hmm, it was my first time there though.. impression of it, was quite alrights! got lots of game to play.. i played the outdoor theme park's roller coaster, it wasnt as scary as the one which goes all the way up,stuck there densuddenli drop down at a very fast speed, covering long distance.. i nearli cried man.. haha, in the end came out laughing..but heart was like stuck in the middle of the air, like im dying soon! hahahahmmm~ MALAYSIA arhs.. alwaes cheat money de.. the things there is rather expensive!din have the time to shop cos have to take care of my younger cousins! [i treat them as my own siblings] yupp! heh.. missed out alot in school.. cos skipped alot of lectures T_T i think this coming exam, which is next fridae, im gonna flunk all! wahahahahhaas~havent even started studying.. more than 35 chapters in less than one week to study..! WILL DIE ARHS~ bad! todae's exam, onli studied a few hours beforehand.. how great can it be?! hmmm..anyone help me! T_T oh well~ everydae pig and pig, reali jia lat arhs! haiyo..saw him again todae when he was boarding the bus. din notice him..sian~ den was holding mac in hand leh! so paisae.. cos bought back for siblings marhs.. den once in a while, put hand into the plastic and grab for fries.. how great! LOL~ (im sure u all will do tt de hor! =p) - arnd 7-8 times?! lol =.- tout i will see him in school but din.. heart pounding fast, cos mistaken alot of ppl for him zzz lame de lorhs, den in the end, he happens to appear in front of me.. haix.. why?~! alwaes like that.. bad! gave that buay song face, sure got see me de larhs! hmm, its ghost festival! all of you, better beware! hahaha.. go home early~ yup yupp!many ppl in my class is sick. including myself -flu, so you ppl better drink more water and take care! LOVES~ heartxbr0kenz 15AUG07 2227 |
| Tuesday, August 7, 2007 |
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sighh. dont understand why everytime when im settled or calmed down already he will appear in front of me.. i was reali sadd, teared.. 因为你我的心情很低落。。我已经很努力不要在去想了。为什么你又要突然出现在我的面前呢？天意最爱作弄人。。 当我看见你的时候，我的心快跳出来了。。 还以为我已经把以前的事，都忘了。。 也许那是不可能的！ -给我多一点时间 晚上1033 |
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zzz. was having a happy thought about blogging.. but my mood is being ruined by some UNREASONABLE people when i signed into msn. i always seem to be the one at fault! ya ya, and the last time u broke off with me is due to some stupid reasons which u do not want to share? THEN ____, may i ask you.. how do u expect me to put myself in his shoe and think for him why he broke up with me?! i scolded him, din give him face? please larhs.. i din scold him okayy. was typing some personal msg to myself, if he thinks its him den be it. i din stop him.. Zzz and stop asking him to complain about everything. he wants, he come and look for me and tell me.. clarify with me, dont need you people to intrude into our lives! saw him todae, was feeling so much better unlike the last time.. was so late for school today, cos of the stupid bus which was late for 20 mins. zzz, but there's 4 hours break now. siian. the PIPC test oso CMI, its /50. gonna fail* sighh.. why is so many things happening at one go? DAMN! I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ANYTIME.. i shouldnt have struggled in the pool ytd.. shud at least DROWN myself and DIE in the 4M DEEP pool!!! and soon there will be no more worriess... Zzz! FUCKOFF lahs. i dont need all ur fake concerns* i rather not have it! at this point of time, i feel that i hate all the GUYS! hatred* heartxbr0ken 07AUG07 0149pm |
| Friday, August 3, 2007 |
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i know its my fault. i dont know how to cherish you. im a loser.. i blame everything on others, pushing faults to others.. i sincerely apologise, sorry.. =( 03aug07 1317pm |
| Thursday, August 2, 2007 |
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im tired! im going crazy cos of my stupid project.. ahhh~ help me! i dont know how i am suppose to present on the actual day.. havent prepare my speech.. so lack of time, reali. im sure i'll freak out, and will become speechless! lols~ predictable~ hmmm.. im going crazy soon! >< quite a lot of things happen recently.. went downtown to swim with irenetay on mondae, rushed to longzhen's birthday celebration later on.. left one of my bag at the toilet. it consist of my newly bought specs, hair wax, deodorant, 2 foundation and stuff~ i dont care about the others except my specS! i love my specs alot, some more its my birthdae present lor! its like in less than a month i lost it.. how can? such a failure i am.. sighh, i was thinking, i will treasure it.. and it ended up like that.. cos asked irene to go back and find it for me.. its like in less than an hour its not there alr lor.. damn sad de can..? i cried and cried but whats the use? its alr lost.. but i find one thing reali strange. wad makes that person think that SHE can wear that specs. everyone is of different degree mahs. unless u tell me coincidentally she has the same eye degree as me.. then i have nothing to sae... but sorry lz, forgot to bring ur prezzie, den cried.. i spoiler sia.. btw thanks everyone for ur concern.. oh ya, went to xt's working place to eat. the food is nice but den the BITCH there, isnt.. zzz hmm, two labs ytd. SFP, my favourite lab cos we can eat. we made stew beeF! its like damn nice lah. u ppl shud try it! hahahas. i went arnd the whole lab getting food [ beef, chicken, fish ] even after eating one big big plate of rice.. hmmm, can imagine how nice the food is eh? tempting =x oh well, im fat.. wad to do?~ last week we did baked products.. my group did muffins and scones.. ITS NICE!! heh.. will update some pics and u'll know =] LZ, happy belated bd~! after school, went to tm to walk for a while while waiting for someone to come.. after dinner, was walking towards the mrt station.. at the traffic there, i slipped and sprained my ankle, i think is a slight sprain.. damn embarrassing can?! lols~ but tout of it, its kinda funny. heh~ >.< btw aunt [mom] having exams now! jiayou, mug mug! sure can do it! yeah~ den after exams, can go for holidae le!! genting, wait for us! we're coming.. [10th - 12th] btw ppl, exams are around the corners alr. jiayou k?! =] heh.. gotta rest alr, later still have to wake at 6+.. its kinda late alr.. sure cannot wake up, there's obc test some more.. din study todae. luckily i did read up ytd >.< specially for xt- there's sure up and down in life, it depends on how u perceive it! jia you, u can overcome all these de~ everyone will be right beside u supporting u.. jiayou! =] loves~ heartxbr0kenz 02AUG07 0147am |
