| Monday, May 28, 2007 |
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hello.. its been weeks since i blog eh? oh well.. actuali i have lots of things to update, but just dont know where to get started.. Zzz.. i wanted to blog on 10th may de but my jie dont allow me to touch her laptop so.. too bad lorr =] im alone, in the school library now.. I wanted to accompany xiaotong, at the same time surf the net thats why im here.. but she went off within 5 mins after stepping into this place how's school? thats the question i want to ask..! i hope everyone is doing fine and not be like me.. stuck with my studies, no intention of going to further my knowledge.. but to slack thruout.. i din touch my homework, din study much for all the quiz and tests. tomorrow there's PIPC1 quiz. If XT din mention about it, i will not know anything and just flunk everything.. how great things are eh..? i SPENT more than $500 since the day i got my ATM card - 10th may! know what? on the very first day, straight after i got my card, i spent $175 on contact lenses! and the spending started.. its like so easyy, so convenient.. [money rolling out from my pocket]. went out to shop, bought quite a no. of things.. but look at the amount i have in my bank now? SIAN le.. haiyo! reali jia lat.. "havent earn money, den know how to spend so much le" - thats what the elders like to say, and i think thats reali very true.. nothing is free in this world.. NOTHING btw have been going out alot.. life is reali boring Zzzzzzz.... on saturday, we went to sentosa to celebrate meikwan's belated birthdayy.. it was quite boring? yupp.. tio pushed into the water by yinghaw -stupidd [ the water was damn salty lorr -.-] den played volleyball.. i laugh non stop, like siao gina like that. but its not funny lorr.. i just feel like laughing. just laugh and laugh but i can feel the emptyness inside.. it was quite sad de.. you know how things are?! it rained after that.. we stayed in the pavilion for a while and went back to the shore.. i felt like swimming to the other end but they dont reali want me to.. so i just stayed near to shore.. yupp~ ying was having fever, hope u're feeling better le.. den stacy din sleep for 2 daes cos of her stupid TRIPLE E camp.. sian de, so she left without having dinner with us.. went to spizza at vivo to have our dinner.. the helena pizza sux~ [not recommended] and soon it'll be my turn.. i was just wondering, wad if everyone forgets my birthday? its not a big deall.. and i would reali like to try it out! so on wednesday, just treat it as a normal dayy ba.. cos i dont think i will have the mood to celebrate it... its just a birthday, its nothing much =] btw i miss church alot!! i havent been committed.. i've been a very bad girl.. i concecrated but din do wad i promised myself! so what's the use? i've been lying to myself for so many years le.. and have been very unfaithful.. i want to change.. i want to show the others there's YOU in my life.. and tell others that You're there in times of needs and trouble.. just there for us no matter when, where and what.. there's lots of photos to update.. will do it some day when im free alrights ='( cos havent been home for very long le. sorry peeps.. as i type this out, i felt like tearing, just donnt know wads with me.. -THE EMO KID = me took more than half an hour to get everything typed out.. guess i'll stop here for now.. take care peeps~ heartxbr0ken 28May07 1608pm |
| Tuesday, May 8, 2007 |
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i just feel like blogging.. =[ tiredd* sighh~ din understand a thingg from the lectures.. or ratherr, im SUPER DUPER DISTRACTED lah.. the theatre is SO damn NOISY lah.. esp* at my side.. Zzz din pay much attention, din get anything into my head. so so so STRESSed, so afraid that i'll FLUNK everythiing. = dont need to go sch liao.. = useless personn liao lorr. oh well.. after school, went to jiawen's house to see doggy.. its just 2 months old! so minute >.<> but its very naughty cos it bite non stop.. no matter who it is.. it just bite and bite CRIES* then, we went down to the bball court to play ABC* yupps~ im so lousy..!! overall, it was okayy.. not v fun thoughh.. but i hope that after todae our bond is stronger! but im sure, that its not and it wont be.. saddedd~ how am i going to survive for the three years to come?! was having lunch just now at *flavours* and unexpectedly, `HE POP-ED UP from nowhere.. its the moment which i would desperately try to AVOID the most! T.T at that instant, my heart nearli POP OUT! i turned to the side and hid my face.. i reali dont know how to face him.. what am i suppose to do? how am i suppose to react? friday is a special daee for youu.. so have fun! vex! =[ some ppl are just so petty and impatient.. cant they just wait for a while more? PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE okayy~! Zzz sian lahs.. yesh, specialist [vin] we'll try to go out next weekend for dinner! =] and cheer up! everything will be okayy for both of ya de! no worries.. dont be sad :) heartxbr0ken 08may07 1130pm |
| Monday, May 7, 2007 |
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im feeling reali siianz lahss.. boredd boredd bored boredd boredd!! super hungryy now.. i think i'll starve to death soon! *cries T_T dont know what to blogg about lahx.. will die man!! die die diee~ --> better wher are all "myfriends"? ii dont want to go to sschool!! i dislike school.. dont even understand a single word wad the lecturer is teaching.. = dont need to go sch --> can go die already lahss..! pif* i may look happy eh? but seriously, im faking.. how long more do i have to put on this act eh? i just hate to see my class like that.. some ppl are just so Zzz.. sighh~ i hate this kind of life.. HATE IT HATE IT! and once again, her life is filled with emptyness. loneliness. & darkness! fcukoff* heartxbr0kenz 070507 732pm |
| Saturday, May 5, 2007 |
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im feeling so tiredd even though i slept for 8 hrs alr.. hahas.. guess what?! i taunted at I.R.C [at peninsular plaza] the whole night playing games with TINGY and QING(audition,o2jam,maple.. sian1/2) and that sounds a bit retarded yeah..? oh well, what to do? its becos they cant find any friends to keep them company, thats why i came up next in mind.. if they have their friends with them, would they even bother to take a look at me.. not even a glance! i wonder why things alwaes COCKED up this way.. now everyone is happy with their life. happy-go-lucky~ the past has became memories.. dead` to carry on, i reached home onli at 1030am this morning! dong buay tiao liao, sure peng lah.. Zzz~ sighh! and with me staying up the whole night, knowing that i am about to fall sick- cos of my THROAT. I was down with flu and cough [not very serious though; slight] yupp~ but my throat is so much better alr! PREVIOUSLY... -to be specific, on tuesday, it was the worst man! the first thing i woke up -swallow saliva -> pain like shit~! [the dae before {labour day} ate alot of bbq and fried food cos its my precious baby jayden's one yr bd! had chalet] in addition, i was SO SO SOooo late for my tutorial which starts at 9.. i was suppose to be marked absent but its the first tutorial so.. --> "GRACE" lorr! i went into class, telling myself that im not going to cry in class.. yet i couldnt control myself so i started tearing.. ZZzzzzzzzzzzzz sian1/2~ oh well~ they cancelled the roller blading outing for today, changed it to mahjong at stacy's house. msged her before i sleep, asked her to CALL ME till i get up, she din. say she doesnt wan to disturb me, let me rest. so.. i missed out the fun =( sighh~ thanks to her =] zzz.. SERIOUSLY, i MISS my secondary school days alot! especially my friends..! everyone got into different school, so caught up with sch and stuff.. now we dont even have time for each other.. sighh~ the pace of poly and sec sch is reali different.. i have the INTENTION of skipping sch till i get expelled.. i dont feel like studying already.. can ii? =( sighh~ i am not close with this class of mine.. mayb its jus the beginning, have to get used to it, but i just feel so insecure.. a class that is divided into different cliques, will they gossip and backstab each other?! who knows..  my class..everytime i see my cousin in the lecture theater, she seems so happy.. laughing and chatting with her friends, JUST so happy.. - it does reali made me jealous? sighh.. does it reali matters? -it dont... woke up onli at 7+ by ur call.. yupp~ changed in schedule, so dont have to go out le lorr = dont need to go aunt's house le.. heartxbr0ken 05may07 932pm |
