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Thursday, March 22, 2007
GEMINI 22MARCH07

The Bottom Line
You're approaching an obstacle -- take time to prepare yourself, and you'll succeed.

In Detail
Today you may feel like a track star -- because you are very quickly approaching an important hurdle. And just like an Olympic athlete, you knew this hurdle was coming -- the good news is that you are completely prepared for it (and preparation counts for a lot). Of course, you won't be able to go around this obstacle -- so take a deep breath and make that leap right over it. You are in a good position to win this race.

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

Monday, March 19, 2007
-GEMINI 19 March 2007-

The Bottom Line
There is a lot to be said for getting a consensus -- seek advice from friends today.

In Detail
There is a lot to be said for achieving harmonious agreement -- especially right now, when your future is so closely tied to the futures of the people around you. Your family, friends and colleagues all have strong opinions about what's currently going on, so why not ask them what they think -- and hear them out? You don't have to take their advice, but if you keep your mind open and respect what they say, you'll discover that they've considered things you haven't even thought of.


ohh? is it.. dont know leh! i just know that my mind is in a mess right now! ahha~ oh well.. hope everything will be fine soon.. -`PRAY-

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let ur request be made known to God" =]]

yes~ and i shall. [i want to make it a habit]

get well soon~ =]

LOTS OF LOVE,
heartxbr0ken
19 march07 2327hr

something to add on..
i love this song lots =]
all thanks to the person who sent this to me ;]

I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you
l will never find another lover more precious than you, more precious than you
Girl You are Close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

my life I pray for someone like you
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

I promised to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I really love you.

my life, I pray for someone like you,
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You're all that I've ever known, your smile on your face, all I see is glow
You turned my life around, You picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down & I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

my life, I pray for someone like you,
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too
All my life I pray for someone like you

2359hrs ;)

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

heyy, im feeling reali sian can. so i decided to blog again! bu fu qi~ bah!
heh.. ahhh. actuali have alot of things in mind de.. but yi shi wang guang guang~ LOLS! so i'll stop here =]

it isnt as easy as i think it is
heartxbr0ken
19march o231am

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Sunday, March 18, 2007
was blog hopping till i came to this blog..

this guy reminded me much about myself in the past, dying for love- love sick.. thinking of you day and night, without u knowing.. back then, u were so busy with ur life.. its the same for you now. you wont care how much i was feeling, u didnt care at all! not even a message was send to me.. i waited day and night for ur sms, for your reply.. none came, NONE!

.. and now, u're asking me back, back to you.. back to somewhere wher i've done so much, trying to get ur attention, somewhere where i was deeply hurt!

what do u want from me, seriously? WHAT?! i had HAD ENOUGH of this kind of life, darkness. im not a puppet.. not a toy for ur enjoyment, when u're happy, im lucky enough to get ur replies.. not happy, u ignore me.. seriously, what am i to you?! that is the question for you.. why ask me back? its really funny.. is it becos u cant find any one else to toy with?

.. and if i were to go back, i'll be an idiot, a fool..

ytd you asked: how long more do you wan me to wait?
heyy, hello...? who waits for who?! when i was waiting in great pain, u were enjoying urself! and now.. i'm about to fully recover, there u are! standing there at my doorway, burged into my room and want me back to you? how can i do it? how am i going to....? please! think THINK THINK!! think before u ask me anything, think before saying out some things that hurts alrights?!

..sincerity is what i want. faithfulness - yes please.. but u didnt give me any. i want to BUT i cant entrust my life in you once again! I CANT.. i fear, you were the one who hurt me this much, u are the one who brought darkness into my life.. a place where i tried my best to run. but no matter how much and where i run to, in all directions, im still in that SAME lonely and dark place. please, get away from me! this is not a place where i wan to be.. its NOT!!

im SATISFIED with my life now, so please..-get lost? dont haunt me with those thoughts again! i'll be really grateful =]

im cool, im fine =] no worries ppl~ haha! yupp~
just that life is DAMNdamn boring?! ahha~ agree?!
yep~ i want to learn how to trust again, to dare to run and love!! to recognise my new existence; new life; new beginning =]

but i feel so lonely.. everyday rot at home. ask friends out, either no reply, if not will sae - i not free, why dont say earlier~ thats them! no choice lorr, live with my own.. i'll be used to it.. hope so.. adapt adAPT ADAPT!!!! hahahahahahhaahha~ adapt to my new life, new beginning.. heh~

i feel so retarded. oh wells.. :)

adapt adAPT ADAPTation!!!! x=
heartxbr0ken
19march07 0032hr

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yea and i did go out during the night.. went to TM to watch "The Messengers". HAHA! I think u ppl cannot join me for movie de lehh. i cannot keep my mouth shut de! NOISY NOISY* ahha~ was out with siblings.. den i was sitted in between them. i turned to left sae, "yao lai liao, bu yao bei xia dao [its coming, dont get scared]!" den turned to the left to my sister, "wo heng pa![im very scared], yao lai liao.. bu yao beii xia dao hor!" repeatingly do that! haha, cos its a horror movie mah~ den reali scary lorr! my brother saes -watch that show will tio HEART ATTACK! lols.. as for me, i kept using the sweater to cover my face.. but i got watch lah! if not waste money mehs?! haha. BTW JIE JIE TREAT MOVIE TICKET DE!! SO SWEET!! hahahahaha...

erPz, as for the horoscope thingy, i definitely disagree! yea, charm? RETARDED CHARM! hahaha! cos i look retarded today.. was taking my own sweet time b4 gg out to meet jie jie.. but din take the time to dress up. i look like an AUNTY or rather an AHSOH when im out.. ah ha~ "I look retarded today" came out from my mouth repeatly, [cos i reali do].. LOLS~

okayy lah, i dont reali dress up?! very shui bian de.. den that day saw irene tay on 15 march! haha.. took the same bus as her but din know until we alight at pasir ris interchange. cos i was at the upper deck mahs~ we talked over the phone after that! den she sae, next time wan go out wear nicer! dont wear till like so aunty like that >.< SEE! she also say me~ sobx sobx~ hahahaha but still, i dint care much =X hahas

ahh well.. quite into movie lately. i'll list out wad i watched

ghost rider - ehh, to me is not bad lah. but the show no link lehh LOLS~
men tu [protege] - drug drug~ low crime doesnt mean no crime =x
norbit - LOL! lame show
pursuit of happyness - inspiring*
the messenger - horror~ not bad but ending abit diao, lol.
happily N'ever after - evil stepmother! FREEZE to death bahs~ happy ending ^^
MUSIC AND LYRICS - NICE SHOW OKAYY~ i like >.<
im a cyborg, but thats ok - NOT RECOMMENDED TO WATCH! hahaha~ LAME!! =p

ahha~ AHQ asked me to watch stomp the yard, but havent give him a reply yet. dont know wad's that show about.. BTW i cant wait for SPIDERMEN 3 to be out!!! I WANT TO WATCH! i dont care~ die die MUST watch.. bahh! hahas.. as for MR bean's holiday, might be catching that.. IM SUPER DUPER BROKE NOW LARH! poly fees die liao >.< sobsobx*

im feeling quite tiredd le~ must go rest liao =D heh! pigg laii de~ but im SURE i cant slp when i lie on bed de.. cos now got alot of positive ion mahs! THROAT PAIN~ might fall sick soon.. [ i rather fall sick loh ] heh! crazy rightss?! not going to church later, AGAIN!!! JESS, WAKE UP!!! why stop going to church again.. ur goal for this year rmb?! sighhh~ take care ppl! till then..

current music: love story, full house n smack that ><

lonely, lonely.. :(
heartxbr0ken
18MARCH07 0320am

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Saturday, March 17, 2007
yesh. due to vin's tag, it reminded me abt my horoscope.. thanks vin for tagging still.. =)

GEMINI
The Bottom Line
Your charm will be very effective today -- it's a great day for a big date.

In Detail
Your charm is going to be extremely effective today. Doors won't just open a little bit so you can elbow your way in -- doors will fly open, revealing a great big welcome sign! And getting comfortable in a new situation will take you nanoseconds, so this is a perfect day for a big date or a trip to an unfamiliar place. An important relationship could take a giant leap forward if you just relax and let your inner brilliance shine.


ehh. isit? but i have no where to go today lehh. lol. unless i go walk walk alone again~! see if got ppl want to get my no. =XX hahas. joking larhs. i not that bo liao~ yupp! "wo hui you zhe ge mei li lai mi shi shui sia" -.-"

JIAYOU peep.. in everything that u are doing~ TAKKAIRE!
i think i shall stop here.. CIAOZ

its not that short afterall... ):
heartxbr0ken
17march07 147pm.

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hello peeps. =] im eating cotton candy now. yumm~ hahas, cos just now went to pasar malam~ eat till very VERY full ah, stomachy exploding. yupp~ den watched hana kimi last episode! very lame loh. haiyos~

earlier morning went to see the TWINS off into army.. ah ha, now they're botak >< good luck arhs! =]came home at 1++ den went to rest le.. from 3 slept till 7++ real pigg~ sure cnnt slp le.. so decided to blog cos din blog reali much these few days.

in the days to come dont know wad can i do le.. go back to VE? find another job? but i'll be working for jus one month onli.. no one wants to hire de lahs. siannzzzz... so how? reali need to earn some for the upcoming poly fees. shud have chose JC so wont burden my family.. BUT!!! im not those study type de mahs.. wad to do.. sobx, feel so useless..T.T

oh well.. cannot reali adapt to the life im having now.. they left, i've no friends le.. feeling reali lonely? maybe..

current music -nvr let u go, wo ai ni.
skipped dont matter cos jie saes "HengNanTing"

loneliness. emptyness. saddness fill my heart.. ):
heartxbr0ken
17mar07 1256am

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

GEMINI 16 march 07

The Bottom Line
New people bring new energy to your life, but they can also be a distraction.

In Detail
New people can add vitality and energy to your life, but they can also distract you from other important things. There are many work or school issues that need your full attention right now. Be careful about accepting too many invitations or going out on too many dates -- you might not have as much free time as you think you do, and it would be a real shame to start something that you can't follow through with.

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

Thursday, March 15, 2007
ahhhh. slept till 459pm today! for 14 hrs leh! damn pigg sia.. =[
gotta catch up with lots of things le..

life is BORING~
dont see a need to blog about my daily event
cos its a routine..? yupp!
write too much u all oso siann..

oh well.. DO TAkE CARE PEEPS!
lots of love <3

kiss goodbye.. ):
heartxbr0ken
15mar07 5:41pm

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live life with no regrets
but she lives her life with full of regrets.
although it is not e end of the world.
but, oh well..

she's so tiredd,
she feels like ending her journey
even though things may seem for the better,
yet she still walk aimlessly..
not knowing which path to take.

there she was, at the crossroad.
now she has taken this path,
its a new beginning for her..

but she still feels like breaking down and cry..
something to take note of:
she's NOT trying to gain any sympathy* dont get her wrong..

those who are in disguise, just FUCK OFF!
fake concerns, i rather NOT have... GET LOST.


its not her intention to hurt anyone. things just go the wae it is, sorry..*
heartxbr0ken
15mar07 0304am

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
CRYING MY HEARTS OUT
hurting/ insensitive/ harsh words that hits me hard.

there's just so much going on right now
that she havent told anyone, not a single soul
her friends might think they know her
all about her.
but honestly,
you've touched only the surface of what is going on inside her head.
and she feels like crying so bad
like how right now, she's tearing up as she type this
but who can truly understand what she's going through?
and even if someone does understand,
they won't be able to help.

because while she've been through bad stuff,
this is the big daddy of them all,
the monster boss of all problems.
and this is really anchoring her heart
she can feel it sinking deeper and deeper every second into a bottomless pit.

but no matter how sad she is, or how many tears fall from her eyes,
the problem still won't be solved like how she wants it to be
so might as well smile, try to forget that it's happening,
and move on bravely right?

im sorry peeps if i bored u with her emo-ing again
and peep will just prolly think
"there she goes again. negativity."
but im sorry i jus need to let it out..
she just cant help it..

be there for me
heartxbr0ken
14march2007 0143am

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
went to ashley's blog and saw this personality test. and i guess its quite obvious that i reali do need someone to depend on.. and support me! ITS VERY TRUE CANNOT be too dependent. sighh~

You May Be a Bit Dependent...

You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned.
You need a lot of support in your life, at all times.
It's difficult for you to survive on your own...
And you don't reallly think you ever could.


but of course, i will try my best to survive on my own. STAND ON MY OWN FEET! i dont need anyone's help. thanks for euu ppl concern.. lots of love <3 cherish`~
u'll be gone in less than 2 days..
heartxbr0ken
13march07 1420pm

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Monday, March 12, 2007
GEMINI [12 march 2007 ]

The Bottom Line
Today is the calm before the storm, so prepare for a long-anticipated shake-up!

In Detail
This day will be very placid -- with no noticeable highs or lows. But while there will be no major excitement (good or bad) today, you will find it hard to shake the feeling that things are about to change in a major way. As usual, your instincts are absolutely correct. Today is like the calm before the storm, so batten down the hatches and lay in some supplies. Very soon, there's gonna be a major shake-up!

she wants to be in love but she cant
1149pm

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-she doesnt know wad she's trying to do either..

so confused, so vex.. everything. but she pretend that everything's gonna be alrights. to pretend that there is some bottomless pit in her heart that sucks all these fears and tears. so she kept telling herself she's ok, tell herself that everything's gonna be fine, everywher she go.. that she'll be strong, she will not fall.. but sometimes the irony of it made me laugh at how things are going..

a part of her is dying.. she feels like tearing.. crying out so loudly, that someone will notice her.. notice that she's feeling reali lonely amidst the crowd of friends, that she needs someone to depend on, someone to care for her.. and maybe someday ppl will jus look back and understand.. understand how she's feeling, how hurt she is..

heartxbr0ken
12 march 2007

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

STEP OUT OF MY LIFE! WHOEVER YOU ARE!..
GET LOST

let time be the answer
heartxbr0ken
12mar07 0332am

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hmmm, went to stacy house today..
-ate alot [non-stop]
spagetti
pizza
famous amos
pucca chocolates
biscuits
chickenwing
garlic bread
red bean ice cream
pineapple tarts
cola sweets, bear sweet
-sprite, ribena, A&W, H20

-played mahjong..
-played with jesscy, hug her, carry her, took pic with her
-listened to music
-onlined/chatted
-sian-ning
-rest-ed
-sigh-ed/ing
-sms-ed
-took pic with stacy. (she has to forfeit)
cos she lost the game -mahjong.

yupp~ thats about it!

ytd, went walking around town ALONE~ at night
walked for around 3hrs
saw alot of things evolving arnd me, myself...

tears welled up my eyes, tearing
heartxbr0ken
12mar07 0215am

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Saturday, March 10, 2007
HEYLOOOOOOOSSSSS ppL~~~ hahahahaha! and finally WE managed to ROLLER BLADE!! but i FELL 2-3 times.. that's SADD~ awkward!* haha, sae till like i play v well like that.. but still damn JIALAT.. haha! EUGENE fell a no. of times oso! waHAHAHAH~ we are the NOOBs!! fell on my buttock. its like DAMN Painful lah.. WANT more images uploaded rights?! HERE WE GO~
the second time i fell on my butt =X and gene happily go take this down. ah ha~ bu yao *de yi wang xin* =P oops*
that's EDWIN with me! haha. HE's the PRO! he din fall lorr.. just wanted some rest?! isit..? hahaha =x

OH.. just before we went to roller blade i saw this interesting greeny creature~ hahas! its STUCK on the wall =X
haha, so cool rights?! =]]

we played for a while onli. cos i cant go too fast = cant go far! SO SORWIE~ all my fault.. so we turned back AND MY FEET STINKS LIKE HELL! lols~ will faint* =P wad to do [use mirawash =X].. yupp!

went back to DOWNTOWN EAST AGAIN!! played arcade.. *Slack, Stone* and guess wad?! AHHA~ so SMART* of niwde and me! SPENT more than $15 on this..
sobbx~ our money *sniff*
and look wad we got behind! our money has all gone there~

well well, must overcome TEMPTATION! is it the
-attractive colour that made me keeps playing
-not gonna give up that easily! cant lose to machine
[although it cheats my $.$ =p]
-or.. FOOD FOOD N MORE FOOD" [become fatty bom bom liao =X]
I WANT THAT TWO YUPI SWEET!!! *BUFUQI//BUFUSHU*

EDWin 'N' MY pocket was BURNT to the MONEY EATING MACHINE =D MOREMOREMORE~
heeh~
AND FINALLY~ due to the centre of GRAVITY(physicsPHYSICS), it pulled down the YUPI SWEETY~ haha. gene go changed money, TONG* and we GOT IT!! hahahaha =D so happy.. SPENT more than $25
IM SATISFIED! =DD winks*

there goes our money.. ya lah, whoever it is! U BETTER EAT UP EVERYTHING! BAHS~

AFTER THIS, WENT TO AMK for DINNER! met up with MEL THE BOSS AGAIN!! ahha, he's so cute LARH >.< yupp! ate the FRIED PRAWN MEE [hokkien mee] again! it was yummY* i FINISHED THE WHOLE PLATE OKAYY~ although i was feeling full?! big fatty rubber-band[can stretch] dino stomachy, can fill everything =D
MY MASTER PIECE~ so cute >.<

ARCADE AND MORE MORE MORE ARCADE~ the threeMUSKETIERS playing TIMECRISIS4~
>BOSS,GENE,WIN.
oh..? notice something?! the three of them are in SPECS~ haha! play too much liao. *vinvin not there to play.. cos BOSS miss u! he saes he alwaes play that with u! u're in specs too! ah ha~ play lorr.. play somemore~ =X

that's how i ended my day!! =D had LOTSA fun! THANKS PPL~ LOVELOVE >.<
starting to miss the times together~
-heartxbr0ken
10mar07 0404am

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Friday, March 9, 2007
while waiting, i'll upload some pics!
im missing* my friends! those happy times together*
not in chronological* order? haha. LONGTIME NO ENGLISH LESSON!
out late at night to pasir ris park~
yumyum* eating at marina - steamboat [celebrating meikwan's bd~] why arent u in the pic my deary bd girl~ 240506
out celebrating longzhen's birthdae! -300706
ah ha, one day after lz's bd.. celebrating Zahiah's BIRTHDAE! -310706
retarded pics of us~ wahahha.. at jurong, celebrating my LOVE's bd~ stacyLEE 100406~
MARIE's birthdae, makan sushi~ YUM*
looking forward to the birth of jesus christ at jansen's house! =]]
at NYGHS volunteering.. be nanny =X joking* helpin out for the performance. MISS*

2005?~
time for some school~ during sec 3? haha!
speech day?! oh..?
wad's this event?! haiyo~ all mixed up. i look retarded in school! hahaha!
this is a SURPRISE celebration for misskhor! her birthdae!! hahaa.. this was taken in 2005
at YING's house, HER BD~ 17042005
again, my dear MEIKWAN's BD celebration =]] at her housey~
us! stacy,jy,irene n me! after swimming at bedok! =]]

TIME FOR SOME CHURCH -BETHANY- GATHERING! 89ers~
MY BIRTHDAE AT PS CAFE CARTEL~
I MISS YOU PPL ALOT ALOT TRUCKLOADS*~ T.T 2005!
CHURCH CHRISTMAS LUNCH -2004~ sec 3..
after EASTER PERFORMANCE~ 2005.. LOVELOVE*
CHRISTMAS LUNCH 2005! =]] 89er ROX!
church ANNIVERSARY AT RCCC 2006
WOOHOO~ BATCH PHOTO TAKING~ leaving ISS for SSS?~

okayy thats enough for now..
im so dead worried.
why are u so forgetful~

.time is running short. sobx T.T
heartxbr0ken
09mar07 0218am

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HEYLOOS peep~ hahaa.. guess wad im doing now?
-blogging and eating at the same time! wahahahaha..
this is it~ it looks so eeek" in the pic but its actuali very YUMMY~ hahaha.. look at the time now man~ i'll become a pig real soon!
this looks sooooooooo much better! heh* drooling le mahs?*

well, very very siannzZzzZZzz, cant slp so soon if not food cannot disgest, so wait at the same time loh.. its quite a big packet leh! sobxx.. ppl onli know how to enjoy, while enjoying den forgets about everything.. thats so SWEET and NICE of THEM man~ well, wad to do. human nature~ ):

heh, din manage to roller blade after so much of sayin BUT BUT BUT, i guess tomorrow later, WE WILL be able to roller blade liao.. looking forward to it! Waits patiently* =D but guess gene wont be able to wake up that early bahs~ cos he's still out?! oh..? dont care le.. siannZZZzzz...

JUST FINISHED MY MEE~ in less 10 mins?! thats FAST! hahaha. sometimes i reali feel so GUYish~ saddening* AAaaaaaahhhhh~ CRAPZ.. talking crapz again. sorry peep~ i think i'll stop till here bah! =( takecarey~ see ya peeps soon! CIAOZ

feigning ignorance
heartxbr0ken
09mar07 0130am

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Wednesday, March 7, 2007
ah ha! here i am again! well well.. just feel like blogging before going to iron some clothes! yupp! how's the daY?! i hope everything is going fine and smoothly for you ppl! yupp! hahaha..

ALONE at home.. will be going out to michele's chalet later.. GOT BBQ~~!!! hahaha YUMMY* hahas! ytd went to see you off to the mrt station den while walking back with a small big-gulp in hand, it rained.. drizzle.. haha~ find shelter* saw this aunty, a bit sot tio head.. haha was seeking alot of attention.. den sae wad *dua pei kong* blah blah blah~ a bit crazy.. cant help mahs~ haiyo.. when i got beside hai sing sec sch, mei kwan called asking if i would like to go her house and play her newly bought mahjong! ah ha.. i went loh, head back*.. waited around a hr for her n ying to come back.. yupps~ jingying saw them on the train, so was with them also! WHEN jy saw my hair, she laughed NON-STOP IMMEDIATELY! hahaha. like sot tio, a bit siao de.. hahahahaha.. wad's wrong with my hair man. i look retarded i know =D haha. thanks arhs!

ahha, meikwan helped me buy a two piece meal so i shared with jy.. she ate one chicken the rest i eat.. some more i was feeling so full lorr! haiyo.. feel so pig~ shouldnt have said to meikwan "you wan help me buy den buy loh, dont wan den dont lorr" haha.. din know that she will reali buy it.. oh well, thanks!! =D erPz, so we played mahjong.. play play play.. haha. got the pro with us so will guide us along *irene* yupp! -newspaper saes mahjong grabs young singaporean or something of that sort de.. quite true oh?- actuali i dislike cos parents alwaes out playing that, wad to do?~ haiyoz.. den monster was so fierce loh! the previous time i saw her, she was so nice, cute, sweet n everything!!! love her so much! but ytd she BARKED at me, EVEN though of biting me T.T Sobx sobx.. mk said mayb is becos that time she PMS so a bit down. kept licking me.. i wan monstery back! sobx sobx~ wher are you! hahaha!

DEN, after a while, yy n jy went to white sand to DA BAO MAC back for us!!! haha, yum yum* with every EVM, they will give us a free treat of sundae/6piecenuggets/mcchickenburger/wedges/applePIE... yupp! so i got a 6 piece NUGs, eat till my stomachy wanna explode liao~ hahaha! den i help JY FINISH HER WHOLE CUP OF SUNDAE leh!!! how pro of me.. OOPS* i owe u one le.. become so fat liao! sadded.. SO I HAD TWO FASTFOOD YTD~ SO NICE HOR! den waited till arnd 10pm den walk home.. ying2 and me were at the bus stop chatting, about lots n lots of stuff.. all the past.. i hate e past? [onli for the relationship part lah] haha.. yupp!

wahh, im running out of time liao.. i better hurry.. go iron le.. CIAOZ~
wise decision are hard to make
-heartxbr0ken
07mar07543pm

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saw mom tearing jus now.. sobx.. mummy no more crying kz? love ya! *wipe ur tears* kiss ur forehead and rest well..
heartxbr0ken
07mar 357am

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

im reali very sad now, crying till v cham.. my head is exploding.. i am going crazy.. its just that i dont know wad i wan in life but why does she has to talk in this way.. sighh..

"she's like not worried bout her future so why is every1 trying to help her when she don bother.."

wad is this?! im feeling reali reali down now!sighh.. why dont ppl try to understand me..? why isit that when im in trouble, they onli think that im a nuisance.. i dont know.. i went offline immediately.. hurt~

jus now was chatting with ying at the bus stop for an hr++ we talked about e philosopy of life and all the sad stuff... thats why im v down

07mar07153am

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Tuesday, March 6, 2007
ah ha! and this will be my 30th entry.. SO FAST sia.. started my blog this earli feb, den now.. haiyo.. yupp! awww~ dont know why todae dont feel like blogging.. normally will blog when i get online de.. weird..

oh well.. went to suntec jus now to help the TWINS to choose specs. [my taste is not very good] oops* den at there gek kiang* lolS! lame de.. well, but i reali think that the rectangular one is better.. haha, have to listen to the optimist? loh.. on the dae make e specs den can take le.. [first time heard of this sia, but its good! short and sweet] haha.. den gene din get his specs todae cos there's onli one design.. well, will look for others another day bahs.. siann~

yupp! after that went esplanade walk awhile loh.. nothing much to do mahs.. den came home le.. boring* =P yupp! at home more sian.. so go out = good.. arghh! have to iron clothes liao lah.. now wad time liao sia~ LOLS. so smart of me hor.. yupp!

aiyo~ sorry TWINS, cos im alwaes late.. sian~ den made u go for ur japanese class late! sorry! btw, rmb wad u said hoR! teach me japanese.. wahahahahah =X bai jian wei zhong shi fu* wahahaha~

btw, grats to my UPLINE N DOWNLINE FOR THEIR PROMOTION! MRNELSONnJOSHUA~ keep up the good job.

the fear of getting into relationship once again. lost faith in love?-heartxbr0ken
06mar07 0219am

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Monday, March 5, 2007
i may look cheerful on the outside but deep in me, its different.
im hurt, its painful..
pls love me for who i am..

im sorry..
im such a failure
useless bum..
all i know is to upset ppl
heartxbr0ken
05mar07 409pm

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OH YA!!! AND I SAW FIREWORKS TODAY!!! MY FIRST TIME SIA~ hahahahaha!! so nice pretty pretty* yeah~ hahaha~ nice nice.. =D haha~ suddenli tout of it.. so NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVEIT! firstly, gene tout thunder. den meow and gene - construction. hahahah den with a lame answer = firework =correct! hahahha! =]] -04march cos last dae of CNY le bahs.. haha XP

and she love like she nvr did.. ❤

Sunday, March 4, 2007
MORE DOWNTOWN~ ahhhh i'll rot and die here. todae was like SO SIAN AGAIN! hahas. nothing to do.. sorry to drag u ppl down, along with me.. den we're all stoning and sianing.. hahaa.. went for lunch at central after seeing michele off to the MRT station! twins had chicken rice while me - cai fan. haha. while paying for my meal, that guy said his friend wanted my no. BO LIAO DE~ haiyo. no courage at all. dono how to ask urself arhs. PS wad sia~ oh well. we had bubble tea after that! yum yum~ was damn full lah. haha cos after that we bought a 1.5 litre of ice mountain to drink. i manage to finish 4/5 of it! SHUI TONG MAHS~ [WATER BUCKET] hahahaha! yupP~ din go church todae. so bad of me! T_T miss miss*

played bball after that. nice and sweet. haha.. edwin arhs, why todae play till like so shag like that? XP haha wad happened to u?! oh? den gene played till not bad arhs! haha XP. DONTSHOWOFF!* =P the twin twin, can don quarrel over small matters mahs? MUST LOVE EACH OTHER! =P when going back to put the bball and take hp.. there's this TICO, kept looking at me.. LOLS! WAD's WrONG? wrong to hold on to the ball mehs? den go same storey as me some more. i whack ur butt arhs!* oops~ crazy guy! irritating bastard =D

went to LAOPASAT to MAKAN!!! boss[meow] came along. hahaha.. miss that place so SO so so EXTREMELY much man!! and i was the fastest to finish my dinner lah! like DINOSAUR LIKE THAT! haha.. so fat liao still haiyo~ buaytahan.. wad to do? ppl pigg mahs. temptation! meow must be thinking i crazy girl, pig arhs.. like boy like that, eat so fast.. we haven finish den u haiyo! haha! went to play street bb again! everydae the same thing.. listen, see, do liao oso sian. haiyo! BUT BUT BUT i had FUN of course! hahaha =]]

thanks ppl~ loveyou!

i hope im being good enuff today.. let brother use comp for the whole dae! isit due to his bd?! OOPS* thats so bad of me XP.. thats all fox~

what is love all about?! oh..?
heartxbr0ken
05mar07 0114am

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boring~ hahas! got home at 1205am? yupp~ today was out to downtown again and its like SO SIAN~ haiyo.. i shudnt have gone there, cos i feel so unwelcome and eXtra especially when that lady talks. omgosh~ so bad of me.. well well, don care le lah. btw todae's buffet [not fat* XP] was nice =]] thanks arhs~ yupp! michele is SO CUTE >.< hahaha.. and all the kidos there.. well, i think the girls are in love with zz.. LAME LARHS~ hahas den he said something which is so damn hilarious.. -BU YAO CHEN JI MO WO~ cos all the girls are tickling him. LAME SHIT! oh well.. we oso cannot stop them. wad to do?!

went cycling.. edwin n michele shared e two rider de and it was reali cute.. well, i did take some pics of the TWINS~ XD hahaha! cool cool* just think that its so cool =] heh* i wonder wad it'll be like if i have a twin sis or bro~ must be quite annoying rights?! XP ah haa.. yupp! went to arcade quite alot of times.. a couple WON WON WON WON SUCH A BIG BAG OF TIDBITS~ i wan >.< oh well, im greedy.. cant help it.. TEMPTATION! tc on ur wae back andy, and thanks ur mom for the ANGBAO~ so PS* =$
OH YA, and we went to BENNJERRY~ hahahas. e last time i ate that was with the SPECIAL BEAR~ hahahahas.. well, todae's banana split was nice. e flavour we or RATHER, I CHOSE, was YUMMY~ UNLIKE the previous one XP oops* haha~ yumyum* [finger lickin good =P] gosh, brother jus came into e room and tell me tmr's his birthdae! its so so so fast man.. TIME FLIES.. cHerish cherish*

love me for who i am. not by appearance/ movement/ e wae i speak, etc..

P.S: ME~
-BAD girl
-im ROUGH
-useless
-POOR = not rich
-unstable
-LOUD, NOISY
-BITCH
and more to be mentioned~

so think TWICE [shud be more than this. 10000times?] before falling for me/loving me.. if not YOUWILLREGRET [and i mean it].. i dont want to hurt anyone.. im sorry


heartxbr0ken
04mar07 0107am

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Saturday, March 3, 2007
well, and i can see that everyone is doing fine now. and the difference of having me around is not that great.

i dont know how to feel, mayb im sad.. but im reali glad that u're doing great. keep up the good job, josh. i hope that enthu n hyped up jess will be back again. but i doubt its gonna happen. mayb it takes time..? who knows.~ those who said time is the best medicine.. i might not agree to it.... im sorry for disappointing all of u..

oh well.. i can do nothing now, but to hope [hopefully its not a foolish hope].

ur touch made my heart pace.
heartxbr0ken
03mar071245am

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Friday, March 2, 2007
lyrics of this song.. is reali close to the heart

I Just Wanna Cry:

don't think of you as much as i used to
since we've been apart i don't miss you
don't dream of youthe way that i did before
i learned to live my life without you
i don't really need you anymore, but

Chorus:
i just wanna cry
when i see you walking by
i just wanna die
hurts so bad inside
but i just smle
and you'll never see it show
'coz i'll never let you know

i've moved on
i barely remember
all those times we shared together
now that you're gone
all my time is mine alone
i can do anything i want to
i feel so much better on my own, but
(chorus)

don't think i'm sad because it's over
i'm more than happy on my own
i'm finally over you
i don't need you, but
(chorus)

don't think of you
as much as i used to

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and in the end i went.. they came looking for me without letting me know they're on their way.. thats so lame.. well, wad can i do? go down look for them lorr, lost their way.. how nice! alrights. enuff of that.. well, edwin n me manage to play bball late at night. arnd 10pm and due to my crazy laughter.. my loud loud voice [cos im a guy] someone shouted down from that block.. damn sad lah! sighh. wadever.. next time choose an earlier time bahs.. reali sorry, im so buay on~ den made u angry.. don go out better hor? next time don ask me lah. so i wont upset u all~

IM A BAD GIRL:

-made u all came all the way down
-missed the bus
-took cab
-find me irritating cos im noisy
-made u all awkward, with me arnd
-waste money
-worried
and more... to be mention..

oh btw GRATS to gene for passing ur driving theory.. =]

vin, i wan to know wad's on ur mind. wad u wanna say or do.. *curious* oh? well, i don know.. all i do is to upset ppl. and im reali sorry.. wont hide anything from now on. cos i know u ppl meant good. thanks.

i will be brave, try my best to stand up once again~ even though i know its tough.
love u ppl lots. my true ones

heartxbr0ken
02mar07 414pm

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Thursday, March 1, 2007
GEMINI~ 01march07

The Bottom Line
Cherish each moment as it goes by today -- they will go by faster than you expect.

In Detail
This day will start off slowly but will gain momentum -- so much momentum that by the end of the day you'll marvel at everything that has happened. Time is funny like that -- sometimes, the ponderous passage of time requires all of your patience, and then, suddenly, an entire afternoon goes by in a blur. Cherish each moment as it happens today, whether it's a good one or a bad one. Make the time that you have matter.


cherish the time eh? how? whole day at home. but time reali flies man. now its 618pm. without doing anything much today..

sorry niwde. =( i reali don feel like going out to play bb~ lazy. mayb after dinner bahs. see first. haix. sorry. why cannot tmr? -after dinner and tmr de time... is abt the same wad.. but u have to be present there. im sorry.. i dont know how..

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01march 619pm

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hohoho~ 23 hrs and 20 mins of sleep~ well done. haha DAMN PIG LORR. omgosh. bu shi ren lai de.. but it was nice lah. cos it has been raining the whole day.. i thought i on aircorn sia. den i wake and look up two times at the aircorn. its not on leh. OH? haha.. i din eat for 28 hrs le.. haha.. stomachy, are u hungry? oh? hahas.. i dont feel hungry or wad de leh. but i knoe its not good to starve myself oh? haha~ yupp. its all becos there's no internet. so bad! (cannot be too dependent on it u know?)

27 feb, a last minute call came, ask me out. haha. den went to watch norbit with the twins! hahaha. well, it was cool lah. TWINS LEH!! many think that they don look alike.. haha. but i think they do lorr.. abit lah! XP haha. yupp. ehh.. when we're waiting for the movie to start, we went to the suki sushi to makan, jus right beside the ticketing counter of cine. yupp! den eat eat eat.. haha! it was yummy.. the wasabi, oh? so fun to play with?, eat.? hahaha.. i oso don know what im trying to say. haiyo. buay tahan. i ordered the ice cream -vanilla and got the cake in the middle de. so qi guai hahas~ eat alone very pai sae mahs. so we shared XP. yupp! nice? nice...

after movie went to PS de arcade to play basketball. fun? ya. den mom called and sae wan buy new phone for me. SO HAPPY~ [suddenli sae wan buy phone for me abit off leh. like got motive lidat =X] followed by raffles city makan mos burger. we were jus there on time loh. cool~ haha. den eat eat eat. edwin is learning japanese leh! so cool. i wan wan wan.............................

well last month was a short month and it pass so quickly.. so WE MUST TREASURE THIS MONTH K! =)) cos time FLIES~
haiyo my entry sux like hell lorr. disgusted.. pui* haha!

GEMINI 28feb
The Bottom Line
Just because you don't agree with someone doesn't mean you can't be friends.

In Detail
Just because you don't agree with someone doesn't mean that you can't get along with her or him famously. If you opted out of being friends with all people who thought about life differently, you'd have a very boring social life. The yin and yang of this relationship creates an exciting intellectual reward, and debates can be fun. You have so much more to offer than mere congeniality, and people are just as attracted to your rough edges as they are to your smooth ways.

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