| Saturday, August 23, 2008 |
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Should I go or should I not? This question keeps lingering in my mind. If it is the right choice to go there. - Many thoughts had filled my mind since last night when chatting with jonah online. 1. Left out 2. Backslide 3. Not close 4. Unable to commit 5. IM THERE TO PRAISE THE LORD (this is my ultimate aim isn't it) but why am I always affected by the thoughts of others. that's the major reasons why i don't want to be there. BUT think.. think again. If i were to go there more often, weekly, be more committed. OF COURSE I'LL ENJOY MYSELF THERE! - Thinking back of the past, once i was so committed, so faithful. Impacted, yet now? look at myself. Im no one.. I love those good memories where we were so bonded together. Batch outing after christmas or easter lunch, opening up our house for catching up on each other.. Now, everyone s in army le.. No longer in contact. SOMETIMES i really REALLY REALY want to go back, the urge is there. but when the negatives come in, the thought is dashed! - Jonah has the same thought as me. He said, if theo, matt and qy weren't there, he will feel kinda left out. He would rather stay at home and sing song. - PS: Im not saying church is not good, church is like my another home. I love it, its just whether i want to do it or not. Its a place that bring warmth, peace and joy. Im so thankful that aunt has brought me there since young. She wanted to sponsor me for the anniversary dinner ($150) AGAIN~ but i think its alright.. because i still have exams next week. Hopefully this time at home can make me take up my notes and study, if not it's just a waste of time. Then, i would rather go for the dinner at RCCC. - - JOEL's birthday is nearing (which means edwind and jx bd coming too!), tmr there is a birthday party at TPY safra. and this question comes back to me once again. *should i go or should i not?* i want to, but its from 7-9pm. Aunt asked me to go there earlier to prepare sandwiches for the party, but BUT the thing is i have dance from 2-4 tmr at CC. UNLESS you dont mind me going after that. Think by then the sandwiches are already made and done, just waiting for the arrival of the guests. AND ALSO DUE TO EXAMS EXAMS AND MORE EXAMS - its making me go crazy, so much things cant do. sian... In addition, i havent study much yet, what am i gonna do? :( havent buy present for joel too! T_T - - 20AUG WEDNESDAY after NLS revision in school, met up with sunshine. SHOPPING TIME! heh, we went to far east plaza. I SPENT A TOTAL OF $120 or slightly more? IM SO BROKE BROKE BROKE NOW~ T_T sunshine was worst, she bought alot of things, but its of good use. HAHA because she will wear what she buys, unlike me. BUY EVERYTHING AND THROW AT HOME, wait for it to rot.. Just a waste of money. Hopefully, i will make good use of it. hmm.. SOOOOo, i spent a whole day out playing. As for the rest of the day till now, i'll been online day and night. Rotting at home, dont talk about studies because i know im not gonna do well for exams. JUST HOPEFULLY i'll pass (dont want supp paper!) and get into the same class as my closer ones in school. ALRIGHT! time to go, aunt is coming to grandma's house. i gotta ciaoz~ tatass... - heartxbr0kenz 23AUG08 1431 alright, i've decided im not going to church anniversary because i need to take care of grandparents tmr. maid is gg out to have fun with her friends (shiok lorr). and I CANT STUDY. my aunt brought baby boy dylan and bryan here. JUST CANT. i havent started at all since just now.... 5:51pm |
